So those that know me, know my schedule is well… odd. I am on call pretty much from 14:00 until 04:00 every day except Sunday. On until 04:00 Sunday and then off Until Monday. Typically my afternoons and evenings have been pretty free from interruption, I can’t avoid having phone duty from Midnight until 4:00 during the week, and on Saturdays I have the phones for 12 hours. When I am able to find a replacement for my 12-hour shift it is usually Robb. When we decide to go out-of-town it is a disaster to find someone to cover our shifts. That is neither here nor there. Today is Robb’s 14 hour day in the office/with the phones and of course it was mega-crazy!
So my day started out with my cell phone ringing as I sleepily looked at the clock to see it was just after 14:00. UGH! If my phone is ringing at that time something is up. I had planned to sleep till about 15:00 go for a run, hit the showers do a few things… my mistake… never make plans on a Friday. So I hurriedly got dressed and headed out for what would be a very busy day.
What is missing from this scenario? A key part of every other morning in my life… my freaking breakfast. If I have learned nothing over the last year and a half of eating better and working out, and listening to my body, I have learned that you need to feed it! Even if you aren’t going to be doing much you still need food. Furthermore, if you are used to eating a good breakfast… when you don’t get one you get bitchy cranky and HUNGRY!!!! So after I had been in and out of the airport a few times I got the all clear that things had settled down and I was safe to come into the office for a while before my next set of jobs. Well thank goodness because this meant I could grab food!
I headed for the one place I knew was on my way, and wasn’t going to blow my whole diet for the day. Plus it was something I could consume slowly enough that it would feel like I ate. Sometimes I inhale my food and forget to taste it, and that just sucks!!! I hit up… SUBWAY!!!! I loooove me some Subway. Loaded my Turkey sandwich up with veggies, no cheese, and headed to the office. I ate half of it, and gave the other half to Robb, who I didn’t know was also hungry (his Wendy’s did not keep him full all afternoon).
At the office I did my paperwork, helped out with some phone stuff since it was so busy and then I smelled it… sweet wafting overly sugary frosted goodness… Someone had bought a cake and left it in the office. It must have been a birthday or something… Yellow cake, with that sweet sugary what appears to be real buttercream frosting on it from Kowalski’s market. Sweet Mother of all things holy I don’t even like cake that much but I wanted to lick the icing off the cake and the plate.
I put my head into my work and I just kept working but the smell of the cake literally sitting 3 feet from me was just… too much. I had to leave the office. I still had time to kill before my next job but I could not take it. I opened the box and took a sniff of the sweet scent, and slammed the lid shut. I grabbed my keys coat and purse and went to my car. Yes there is food in my car. I live in Minnesota and drive for a living… there is Peanut butter, a bag of popcorn and some dried fruit left, My jerky I gave to a homeless man since it was about a month from expiring and his sign said he was hungry. Once I was away from the cake the thoughts about it did not stop.
So now I sit here trying to pinpoint why?! I traced it back to the repeating pattern of behavior… I missed breakfast. While I did not eat the cake, I did not taste that sweet sweet frosting… I sit here nearly drooling thinking of it lingering on my tongue. Why is it when I miss breakfast it seems to screw my whole day up?
The last time I missed breakfast I let it take the whole rest of my day! I ended up consuming everything from a Larabar to Fries and chocolate that day… it was in the toilet. It wasn’t due to lack of trying, it was due to, everything I ate made me hungrier.
What do you have for breakfast? I know the green monster is quite popular, I have never had one, I dont have a blender… although I should get one… and throw away that milkshake mixer! 😀