When there is no struggle there can be no progress.
Since last Friday my body has been in a mode I like to call, the hunger train. I want to eat everything in sight! I am fighting with all my might to not inhale everything I see. When I went to brunch with my friends, as I posted here on the blog, I custom ordered to find something that would hit on exactly what I thought I needed and wanted, some fat, some greens, and here I sit almost a week later and the metaphorical train barrels on.
I believe that it is hormone related, I am due for that wonderful flux in the next few days, however the fact that this is now on a week of struggle I am just so very tired of this. The week prior to this I didn’t eat all my Weight Watchers points, in fact most days I had to force myself to get close to my goals. This week I am eating into my “weeklies” I find myself not wanting to track my extra points to that I have enough extras left in-case I get hungry… which is silly because all I would be doing is telling myself lies. Track honestly, or you aren’t doing yourself any favors. Eat the right foods if you are hungry.
So I am trying to cut out the unnatural carbohydrates from my diet over the next few days. I am thinking perhaps what I am experiencing is almost a sugar detox. Last week I ate a LOT of carbs. Not really good carbs either, and in my world I don’t view carbohydrates as the enemy, however I do have two different divisions of them in my mind. Natural, and unnatural where the natural ones come from veggies, fruits, dairy etc, natural sugars and starches, and the unnatural ones are the ones that come from pasta and things like that. I ate vegetarian Pad Thai (homemade) 5 times last week. All were within my daily points totals, reasonable serving sizes however that much pasta, even though it was rice noodles, sweetened with honey, and veggies. The amount of carbohydrates consumed may be exactly what has triggered me into this mega food rage.
This week I have been eating chicken salad for lunch, 4 ounces of chicken, with celery puree, and some good fat mixed in to keep it together. Breakfast has stayed the same, my breakfast sandwich (Special K Veggie Flatbread or Jimmy Dean Delight spinach sandwich) and yogurt and I think I need more protein. I am guessing that I am in need of more protein. Last night I had breakfast for dinner, egg beaters, ham and mushrooms (natural carb). Today for breakfast I am swapping out my flat-bread for egg beaters with ham and mushrooms and laughing cow, and a Greek yogurt. Coffee with half & half, and maybe some fruit.
I am dropping the triscuits from my lunch in favor of string cheese, and an extra few snow peas and I am currently unsure as to what dinner will hold as it is my takeout night as I will be hitting the pool right after work. Maybe an unwich from Jimmy John’s. I don’t like that I am struggling so much, I don’t like that I am waking up during the night wanting to empty the fridge. I don’t like that no matter how much water I drink, or how many good choices I am making the hunger keeps coming back.
I am frustrated but I am putting my faith in the program, one choice at a time is all I can make. I will stumble, I will fall, I will get up, brush myself off, and continue along.