Self Care and the realization that I am worth more has been a long and winging road. In my new job I am learning a lot of things, about a lot of things. Sports haven’t really been a big part of my life. I enjoy watching baseball, I like a good MMA fight, I do enjoy a football game now and again. I find myself diving into the sports world to become more educated in hopes of being better at my job. As I learn more about the great athletes of the past I find inspirational words.
Muhammad Ali once said “I’m not the greatest; I’m the double greatest! Not only do I knock ’em out, I pick the round.” I really like this quote. I like to think that he is talking about me, setting my goals and knocking them out one by one. I can do all the hard things. I just have to keep trying.
In having moved forward in my life, trying a new career path, being persistent and tenacious in my goals to be healthy and find happiness in my life I have discovered something. The better I feel the more I take care of myself. In both the sense of eating better and working out I do better, and in the sense that I enjoy the little things more.
Since I started my new position I have found a new way to reward myself for doing things like going to the gym, eating a balanced diet, and just frankly learning to be nice to myself. I am of course talking about the simple act of pampering.
A few months ago I went and got a massage… it was not for me. I spent the next several days, maybe a week sore beyond belief. My chronic pain and connective tissue issues don’t allow me to enjoy the feeling. I don’t relax. I know having my haircut can be a double edge sword for me, sometimes its okay and sometimes it is very stressful. Yes it is just hair, but it’s too much pressure! I have found that getting my nails done is a really great way to spend just a small amount of time on myself. I can’t do anything except just relax and focus on nothing. I go every 2-3 weeks for a gel manicure at Ulta. The girl there that does my nails is fabulous! Her name is Theresa, and she just makes me feel relaxed.
It seems silly that having my nails painted makes me feel more put together, but it does. Some people need to have mascara or lipstick on before leaving the house, I sort of feel that way about my nail polish. I am not a makeup girl. Mom never taught me how to wear it. We would be late to a lot of things because she was putting makeup on. It may be part of why I am so resistant to makeup. My resistance to makeup might also be just that it feels so heavy or oily.
Every time I look at my bejeweled fingers, like little gems, 10 tiny presents on my fingers it is a reminder to me that I am worth taking care of. IT seems so silly that one little change could do so much for me but it can. One small behavioral change can be a visual reminder saying Hey Kris! You are awesome! Look at these awesome gifts to yourself!
And since I can, I’ll show off the two April gel manicures.