So here we are, in the thick of winter in Minnesota. It’s cold and it’s been “dark” here for what seems like eternity. It’s dark when I get up for work most mornings, and the sun in setting, or set when I leave work. The “real feel” temp this week was -33 when I went to work this week. Key in the ignition of the car and I closed my eyes and hoped as it cranked hard, and then eventually purred to life.
Realistically I know the daylight is lasting a bit longer everyday, as I can see the sun out of my office window a little higher each day. As I mentioned in my last blog post, I am inching my way into the anniversary of the”jump” that changed my life. You have to jump before you can soar, or fall flat on your face as the case was the first time. Last year when I left my job it could not have come at a more critical time. I truly was at the end of a truly frayed rope, that had been tied and retied so many times. I as a shell of a person.
I was so afraid that in leaving my job that I would not be able to make it to Fitbloggin in Savannah. Fitbloggin is Family. I needed my family. I needed my family more than ever after quitting. When I attended Fitbloggin in Portland, I knew I needed to follow my heart and get thing in order… I didn’t attend the whole conference in Portland. I spent some time connecting with actual family… that got me to my center… any a year later in Savannah, I cried when I saw my fit-family… and I cried as they departed, I held back sobs in the cab on the way to the airport in Savannah.
Savannah Fitbloggin provided me with the reinforcement I needed to know that I was on the right path. Coffee and quiet heartfelt conversations, laughter so hard that it gives you a headache and the spins. Hugs from Mickey Mouse… I mean Cmon… where else do you get a sense of belonging and acceptance no matter what choice you are making because it is what is best for you. Even now thinking about Fitbloggin I get misty eyed.
This summer brings the opportunity to travel to Denver for the “family reunion” this year. I can’t wait to see everyone again. I’ve never been to Denver, just as I had never been to Savannah or Portland. One of the great things about Fitbloggin the last few years is that it has been moving around. This allows us to see different cities and experience different things. More than that it allows people from different parts of the country to get to the conference, that couldn’t based on the previous location.
One of my fears again taking the job I have now is that I wouldn’t have vacation to get away for Fitbloggin in June… right now my eyes are on the PTO accrual prize to get my 24 hours accrued so I can put in my request so I can have Thursday, Friday and Monday off (because who want’s to go back to work on a Monday!) I will have the time in, despite having to serve Federal Jury Duty in March, so I will be there.
I can’t wait to get #AllTheHugs and have #AllTheFeelings. I have been working on my goals that I set for myself during the #JustTrollin session hardcore for the last few weeks and I am actually seeing results. Now that I am finally in a stable environment with my job where I feel secure I am getting “into the flow.” I want results by the time I reappear at Fitbloggin even if I am the only one seeing the results of my work. The changes I have made I don’t know that I would be as comfortable with without my friends. It’s time to thank everyone!
Are you coming to <a href”http://www.fitbloggin.com”>Fitbloggin</a>? If you haven’t been before you don’t need to be afraid, people are VERY welcoming. Plus you can always come find me! 😀