2012 the year that the world Ended… A lookback.

So by now we all have learned that 2012 would not bring about the end of the world, contrary to what some of my coworkers deeply believed.  It would not bring about the apocalypse despite all the snow being dumped just south of my home here in Minneapolis.  What did 2012 bring about… the death of Twinkies, which were never a food  I ate but was often accused of eating too many of… I am glad to see them go.  It was also the year my gym membership was basically “life tuition” as I developed new heath problems, from my feet to my back, hips and knees problems seemed to be the order of things.  Physical therapy replaced the gym for the later part of 2012 and even that has been replaced with no activity as I sit here in a coffee shop on a Saturday morning evaluating what is to come for 2013.

I have been in my job now for almost a year.  Each day I wake at 3am and head to work, I am on from 4am until 2pm Monday through Friday.   My job is extremely high stress and extremely critical.  This week I took my 2 vacation days and I ended up having to go into work to fix a crisis at 5pm on Tuesday.  My job allows no flexibility for me to sneak in things like a quick walk around the block for exercise.  The most working out I get in at work is running into the warehouse to grab parts off the shelves for people when we are super busy, all this while I am doing other things.  It is crazy, and it sucks a lot at times because I feel like a punching bag when things go wrong.  Generally when anything goes wrong, from anyone elses shift, because I am there during primetime it becomes my fault, and my problems and I am the punching bag.  I have not taken to eating my feelings, but I have identified (again) that I know why i never thought I ate my feelings in the past.  It was simply because I wasn’t in touch with anything.  Not the feelings themselves nor the feelings of hunger.  You cannot satisfy that which you do not know.

This year after regaining a portion of my weight, due to lack of exercise I joined WeightWatchers.  Call it denial, whatever.  I don’t like to talk about the gain, but my clothes don’t fit right, I don’t feel good, and I can see it, that “bloated look” is FAT. I LOVE my meetings.  I look forward to Saturday mornings getting to go and share with people.  My leader, Judy, who I didn’t like the first time I love now.  Her passion and enthusiasm is awesome! She is also trying to groom me so to speak to be a WW leader once I hit goal.  It will be a long road from now but she thinks I will be perfect for it.  She is always asking for my imput on the topic and what I have to share, as if I were a lifetime member.  I like the earliest meeting of the day best, it is full of lifetime members, the other meetings of the day are great too, but there is something about the first meeting of the day that is so full of energy that feels like home.

I’ve struggled a lot with the #WW program lately, having not been exercising because of my health I track some days I  don’t track others.  This week I posted a 7 pound loss after the last probably 6 weeks all being small, but steady gains.  Go figure the week full of cookies and treats at every turn I could ignore.  I guess I need the temptation everywhere in overload to be able to ignore it.


Above is an example of the Holiday strategy session we had this morning on ways to cope with all of the temptations we face around the holidays.  It is great to have a weekly support group meeting.

So really I am heading into 2012, a little wiser, a little wider, and with a lot more support behind me.  Do I grieve for the me that I was in 2011, It would be a lie if I said no, I miss the freedom that I had in my old job.  The ability to just go to the gym for hours, the ability to meet up with my friends and share support and stories and laughter at all hours of the night and day.  However the fact that I now have a routine should work to my benefit, should.  Now if we could just sort out the soft tissue damage in my back, and the issues with my feet… if only if only if only.  I am taking it a day at a time.  I am doing what I can control.  I can make the decision to have the small or medium skim latte instead of the large, I can choose to buy the cut up fresh fruit salad  to save myself a little time at home if it means I will have fruit for work instead of junk.  I used to think that our choices defined us.  I am beginning to rethink that.  I think choices REFINE us.

2013 the year of choice. I choose ME.  What will you choose?

Welcome to 2012

Well hello there little blog, and my dear friends.  I sit here looking at the blinking cursor after a very long night at work.  The days draw longer as I near a new chapter in my life.  Or what I hope is a new chapter in my life.  As I enter 2012 I am setting forth a few mini goals.


My goals are not so much resolutions as “Declarations of Dedication” More of the same things that I have been doing, only bigger and better.  Towards the end of 2011 I got lazy, I got off track.  I stopped tracking again, I slacked off at the gym.  The excuses started to pile up.  I felt like I had no one to be accountable to, which is a load of horse crap if I ever did know one.

The only real thing that I want to make sure that I change this year is that I want to make this year injury free.  I spend so much of my life in pain already dealing with my various funkadelic illnesses that I truly don’t need to keep adding problems to it!  I need to take the time to stretch before and after my workouts.  I need to take the proper vitamins and supplements for my body.

I also need to be more aware of my surroundings.  As I went into work this morning to finish up some paperwork that I postponed during my shift last night to avoid being on the roads at that ever popular bar closing time I found this…


Now if you can’t tell that staircase is loaded with a nice layer of ice.  The parking lot was tons worse where the cars and trucks had been in and out of the lot during the night as the snow fell.  I didn’t think twice as I tried to go up the center of the stairs without the use of the railing.  Duh Kris!  Use the railing!  I searched for some salt, unsuccessfully!  I also almost went ass over teakettle on my own stoop going out to my car this morning as well.  I need to slow down and look around.

So as I step into 2012 I am going to take things one step at a time.  Look around me and make sure I am setting myself up for success.  I would like to be in the low 200’s by this time next year.  My finish line ideally is 199.  I am not under any delusions that it is going to be easy, because god knows that it has certainly not been easy up to this point.

I want to leave you with this thought though as so many people are taking today, or tomorrow to finally start their diets.  You can do anything you put your mind to.  You may fail 99 times, but you have to get up 100 to succeed.  Please don’t ever give up on what you want out of this life.  You only get one shot at living and you have the power to create yourself.  It starts with the first step.  Take those steps now!

Happy New Year Everyone!  Welcome to 2012


First Steps of 2012

Kick in the Pants!

What did I get Myself into?

Am I REALLY headed to Sushi? REALLY?

So 2011 the year I cross things off my list! When most people spend New Years making their resolutions and the subsequent months not following through it seems a bit depressing.  I have been on my journey to get healthy, lose weight and find things that make me happy.

Edamame,Kick in the Pants Roll,Winter Roll

Edamame, Kick in the Pants Roll, Winter Roll

Happiness… huh… Well… If I am unsure what makes me truly happy then I sure can’t just wait around for it to find me! Time to stop watching others do things and start trying them for myself.  So on my 2011 To Do list are things like Complete a 5k that isn’t on a treadmill, an actual tangible walk complete with T-shirt. (Scheduled, May 30th!) Take camera and visit the boulder field at Ringing Rocks Park (in Pennsylvania).  and Try SUSHI. SAY WHAT?! Girl you done lost your mind, you don’t eat fish! You ate Tuna out of a can, and Papaya Fig and Cream cheese Rolls from Lunds and you think you are going to do Sushi?

So when there was talk of another #SushiTweetup at TiGER Sushi2 well I would not miss my opportunity again! I popped my name on the RSVP list at the last-minute and knew it was time.  Experienced people could help guide me into something that would be a good choice for a Sushi Virgin!  I did not want to end up with… a bad taste in my mouth simply because I didn’t know what I was doing. 

So Today was Fishy Friday! I headed out to TiGER Sushi in Minneapolis.  I got there a little after the “start time” which is unusual for me.  Parked, checked in with work to make sure I was clear for at least a little while and headed in.  I was only a little apprehensive.  I had been asked just prior to heading out by Beth (@WhereitBlooms) how adventurous I was… I feel I am pretty adventurous when it comes to food.  We joked about my Papaya Fig Cream cheese Rolls not being sushi, and that a California roll would also not satisfy the “sushi” demand.  I agree! Besides the worst thing that happens is, (well I could be allergic to it, which I don’t think I have any seafood allergies (YAY!)) I hate it but like I said some hand holding was what I wanted. 

There were tons of twitter peeps there, Too many to mention, as I don’t want to leave anyone out! However our dear #PriorFatPack girl Meredith (@pnutmn) was there! At Coffee and Conversation we talked briefly about sushi, and my desire to try it, and lack of knowledge of knowing what I like.  I was stoked to know I could ask her, or Beth or Missy (@MarketingMama) or Sushi Diva Jenny (@PrincessSushi) for help!

Meredith and her guy Ryan (I think… please correct me if I am wrong) and I decided it was a good idea to perhaps split a few rolls to get my feet wet.  We looked over a special Tweetup Menu (HOW AWESOME IS THAT!!! THANK YOU TIGER SUSHI!!!) and decided to get some edamame, which I just love!  I keep a bag in my freezer and eat it as a snack all the time so I knew it would be safe, and fishy free!  We also ordered two rolls off the Tweetup Menu to start.

Kick in the Pants Roll: Inside is a lively mixture of marinated seared tuna, minced fresh ginger, cilantro, fresh mint leaves, cucumber and kaiware sprouts.  Outside is layered with slender filet of tuna that has been marinated in a zingy sauce. Finally it is sprinkles with finely minced jalapeno & red tobiko.

Winter Roll: Inside: Tuna, salmon, & yellow tail, avocado, spicy garlic mayo & mesago.  Outside: sushi rice, crispy tempura flakes & sesame seeds drizzled with unagi sauce and creamy mango sauce.

 So there it was… order placed.  I really wasn’t feeling any anxiety.  I was surprised!  Perhaps it was that I would be crossing something off my list for the year, perhaps it was the great company, perhaps it really was that I am the Brave Little Toaster I thought I could be!  Word got around a bit at the tweetup that I was a #SushiVirgin.  I felt like I should have been wearing a T-shirt or something with a big V on it. 

We devoured about half of the edamame before the rolls came… and then it was time.  Missy offered me some tips about mixing the wasabi into the soy sauce, and to eat the sushi in one bite.  I grabbed my chopsticks and went for the winter roll first.

I grabbed a piece and dipped it, moved it to my mouth and WE HAVE CONTACT!   I gave it a moment for the flavors to register before i began full on chewing.  I wanted to make sure I was not just inhaling it.  As someone who has on more than one occasion inhaled food and not stopped to figure out what it tasted like I wanted to make sure I was experiencing this. 

Guess what? I LIKED IT! There was no gagging, or freaking out about the fact that I had just eaten fish.  As a kid I wouldn’t go near any kind of seafood, boy how I have grown!  Next up was the Kick in the Pants!  I was so not afraid of this “spicy” roll.  Jalapeno peppers do not scare me.  I grabbed a piece of it, and again put it in and savored it.  I liked this one too! *cue “Ain’t No Stoppin Us Now by McFadden & Whitehead”

I was… on a “roll” get it? HAHA! but seriously! I enjoyed the sushi, I also sampled a piece of a Caterpillar Roll which contains Unagi, and had a piece of a Lucky 13 Roll.  (You can look up the descriptions on the Tiger Sushi site if you like!)

We decided that it was time to order just one more roll.  We scoured the menu and I spotted…

The Snow Monkey: Inside: Tuna, salmon, & yellow tail, avocado, spicy garlic-chile mayo & masago. Outside: sushi rice and layers of bincyo (super white tuna) that have been ever so slightly seared and drizzled with ponzu sauce.  Scattered with togarashi flakes. 

So we shared that roll, it was SOOO GOOD! I am glad I spotted it on the menu, it means I know I can find something on the menu that I can identity that I would eat! Woot Woot!

Snow Monkey Roll

The Snow Monkey Roll (To Go)

So I stayed and chatted for a long time and as things started to wind down I decided I wanted to place a to go order.  I still had a long night ahead of me.  A Snow Monkey would be great for dinner.  I guess this means I am a convert!  I will be watching for Groupon to have another Tiger Sushi deal!

After #SushiTweetup a few of us went to Common Rootsfor some coffee and chatting.  It was lovely to just sit and chat about all kind of things.  It makes me feel almost human when I get to go to these things.  Sometimes with my night shift work I feel out of contact with the world.  I am glad that I can connect and laugh and share a night with good food and friends.  It feeds the soul. My soul is overrunning with goodness this week!

Thank you friends! Next week I shall be nourished too!  Are you busy next Wednesday? Want to come to Woodbury and hang out with Jenn and me?  It is bound to be AMAZING!

New Years Wish

I will be working New Years Eve and New Years day so with
that I will share this years New Years quote with you my fellow
bloggers, friends, and journey takers! We will open the book. Its
pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The
book is called “Opportunity” and its first chapter is New Year’s
Day. –Edith Lovejoy Pierce Have a safe happy rockin awesome New
Years! I look forward to our journey in 2011!